These are some thoughts I jotted down last night on my way home. The sun had just set and twilight was darkening into night. I'm not sure if this is prose or a poem yet...
Crossing the street, I felt the warm caress of exhaust as a car passed behind me and I felt loved and at home. Then I smelled the warmth - choking, cancerous. I knew it was death, but I craved it. I am at peace in the swirling heat that I know will kill me someday. I can not stop it - and I find that helplessly erotic. Mmmm... the hairs stand at attention along my spine. My arms pump full of blood, no - of life - life that drips... drips... drips from my ears. As I continue I pass trees with browning leaves. All that I sense is death. Dark and looming death that coos like a young mother to a colic-stricken child. Ssshhhh... hush now... As the warm draft passes, the cold grips my arm and I freeze.
-R.K.M.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Lots to think about.
Argh as usual. I'm trying to work, but I have too much other crap going on. I'm (still) looking into grad schools and (still) having trouble knowing what my decision criteria should be. I know what it is I want to study, but some econ programs are really theory/mathematics heavy and that doesn't really excite me. Maybe it would be good, though - I just can't decide what to think. I'd hate to commit to a program that was theory/math heavy and end up having to backpedal out of there when it kicks my ass. Hmm......
Besides... Laramie, Wyoming??? I dunno.
For now, it's on the short list, which, if you're interested, currently looks like this: Colorado State, U of Wyoming, and U of B.C. at Vancouver.
But, as I look into these options, I might add others and subtract some. There's too many options, so I always feel like I could be missing out on the best opportunities. Climate is a major limiting factor. If a republican wins the presidency, UBC goes straight to the top of my list, but by then I'll have likely decided/committed. Oh, life... be easy, baby.
-Rob
Besides... Laramie, Wyoming??? I dunno.
For now, it's on the short list, which, if you're interested, currently looks like this: Colorado State, U of Wyoming, and U of B.C. at Vancouver.
But, as I look into these options, I might add others and subtract some. There's too many options, so I always feel like I could be missing out on the best opportunities. Climate is a major limiting factor. If a republican wins the presidency, UBC goes straight to the top of my list, but by then I'll have likely decided/committed. Oh, life... be easy, baby.
-Rob
Monday, September 12, 2011
More discussion on 9.11
These are a few comments posted by me on facebook on another friend of mine's topic...
we're actually less free. the terrorists won a small battle and we continue to commemorate it each year. Patriot's Day, eh? ha.
I get that, from an american's perspective, we are commemorating fallen citizens and surviving heroes. Seeing the issue from the perspective of those who would like to see more dead Americans, this holiday is a rememberance of their victory. Unity is a false outcome of 9.11.01 that has been touted by our leaders, but not evidenced by any actions on the ground (easy example = the current domestic political climate). So no, I don't think it's harsh. Not even a scosch.
To me, Patriot's Day marks the unified acceptance of a foreign and domestic policy paradigm shift that has resulted in less freedom for our people. The USA PATRIOT Act is a merely a symptom of the ultimately blinding disease of nationalism. It's all due to misguided American political policy that was born from the ashes of the destruction witnessed on 09.11.01. We have thus created a holiday which, in effect, commemorates the adoption of a foreign policy that has normalized an unapologetic, self-righteous neo-colonial war machine.
-RKM
we're actually less free. the terrorists won a small battle and we continue to commemorate it each year. Patriot's Day, eh? ha.
I get that, from an american's perspective, we are commemorating fallen citizens and surviving heroes. Seeing the issue from the perspective of those who would like to see more dead Americans, this holiday is a rememberance of their victory. Unity is a false outcome of 9.11.01 that has been touted by our leaders, but not evidenced by any actions on the ground (easy example = the current domestic political climate). So no, I don't think it's harsh. Not even a scosch.
To me, Patriot's Day marks the unified acceptance of a foreign and domestic policy paradigm shift that has resulted in less freedom for our people. The USA PATRIOT Act is a merely a symptom of the ultimately blinding disease of nationalism. It's all due to misguided American political policy that was born from the ashes of the destruction witnessed on 09.11.01. We have thus created a holiday which, in effect, commemorates the adoption of a foreign policy that has normalized an unapologetic, self-righteous neo-colonial war machine.
-RKM
Creativity Requires Exercise
I've had the urge to write several times recently, but never at the right times. So now that I have time, I have no ideas. I wish I could not sleep. Then I'd have time for everything. I'd take 40 years of continuous awesome - let's skip the third that I'll sleep through anyhow. Work, school, family and I'm losing my ability to write candidly. I feel like I get great one-sentence ideas, but can't complete a thought without losing track of what I sought to illuminate in the first place. I ramble, but nothing really resonates.
Memories of burnt flesh. What's with this country? Buncha crackers with lemon tea tearfully suggesting that some righteous struggle against evil began a decade ago. It's the same low-brow bullshit we've been fighting for for 60 years - because world-wide democracy will pacify our perceived enemies, right? No. As long as there is a split between those who have and those who have not, there will be suspicion and the hatred that goes with it will have us fighting the same futile battles again and again.
War is a purely hateful endeavor. There is no just war. There are no ends that justify war by any means. War is the tool by which weak minded peoples control the masses.
-RKM
Memories of burnt flesh. What's with this country? Buncha crackers with lemon tea tearfully suggesting that some righteous struggle against evil began a decade ago. It's the same low-brow bullshit we've been fighting for for 60 years - because world-wide democracy will pacify our perceived enemies, right? No. As long as there is a split between those who have and those who have not, there will be suspicion and the hatred that goes with it will have us fighting the same futile battles again and again.
War is a purely hateful endeavor. There is no just war. There are no ends that justify war by any means. War is the tool by which weak minded peoples control the masses.
-RKM
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